On some level, it does help to know what to expect now when he has to have surgeries and what to bring to the hospital, but it can also be a disadvantage to know....to know that he will probably be sick from the anesthesia, cry out in pain most of the nights, beg the nurses to please don't wash his incision of about 100 stitches that runs from one ear across his head to his other ear, have so much swelling that his eyes are swollen shut and which also have a stitch in each eyelid to protect them until the swelling goes down, to go days without sleep, and pray that he doesn't get an infection from the spinal fluid drains.
However, what is easier, is knowing that God's abundant love never fails. It is always there, and reminds me that "there may be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning." It is easier having my savior, Jesus, who hears our prayers, and sometimes down right pleas, for protection and healing. I look back over the past year, and realize how much God has done for my family, in many aspects, and how far we have come. Logan is a true testament of just how real God's love and faith is.
Our God is a loving and forgiving God. He gives us the strength and hope to make it though our darkest hours or moments, if we trust in Him.
"I can do all things through Christ, who gives me strength." ~ Philippians 4:13
before swelling set in
four days after surgery, playing the wii through slightly opened eyes
going home! Christmas eve 2013
That was then, this is now